A break from ttc? Will this be good for me?

This month was the first official month that me and my boyfriend decided to really ttc. Earlier we’ve just said ”if we get pregnant that’s good news, but we’re not officially trying”.

So, this month we said that we would start tracking my ovulation by using ovulation tests. But i didn’t see a progression in those tests.. the lines never got darker even tho I had egg-white cm for the whole week we started testing. So we thought we should just have sex and see what happened...

And low and behold.. five days after sex I got my peak in opk... and of course my boyfriend was out of town so nothing happened in the bedroom this fertility window.

For the seven months before this, I always hoped for a baby.. even tho we weren’t trying exactly. But this month, I felt kind of relieved. Not that I’m not pregnant, I still really want a baby. But every other month I’ve cried myself to sleep after getting my period.. and this month I feel different.

I think my body really needed a break from trying for a month. I feel so much more relaxed but also so ready to try again this cycle