I feel so lonely

Madeline • Mommy to 👼 angel baby Jackson (06/14/2017) and a rainbow baby 🌈 Alexander (09/29/2020)

I’ve never felt so lonely in my life. I’ve been married 3 years and my husband and I welcomed our rainbow baby into this world 5 weeks ago. My husband was home with us the first week and then had to return back to work. So for the last month I have been home during the day with the baby and at night I do all the feedings. And don’t get me wrong I love my baby boy so much and wouldn’t trade him for anything. Anyways my husband has been into the stock market and learning how to trade stocks. He gets off work and just spends his entire evening staring at the damn computer. I literally have to beg him to watch a movie with me and no matter how many times I bring up being lonely and wanting to spend time with him everyday it never fails it’s the same shit. I can’t even remember the last time we had a real conversation that didn’t revolve around the stock market. And to top it all off he didn’t put our dog on his line when he let him out this evening so the dog ran off and still isn’t home it’s been nearly 3 hours. Husband is peacefully sleeping while I take care of the baby and wait up for the dog to hopefully come back. And all I want to do is sleep and spend some quality time with my husband. Why is spending time with him so much to ask? Ugh!!