Y’all I need to rant

This whole trying to conceive things is currently killing me, No I’m not ok I’m hurting really bad and there is nothing I can do, It’s so frustrating the only option we have and of course it cost more than we could ever afford, Yet every one I know including my own sister is pregnant, Some didn’t want the kids some friends didn’t try some friends tried for a month then boom, Do you realize how hard it is for me to be happy for everyone else in my life that’s pregnant or just had their baby and I am struggling to keep it together, I can’t even talk to my husband cuz he can’t under stand it’s not his fault we’re not pregnant it’s mine, It’s like I am a women a young women and I can’t do the thing I was physically born to do.