I've always wanted a family, to settle down and enjoy life as a mum. I'm now over 10 weeks pregnant and I'm so conflicted. There's a side of me that's excited and cannot wait for them to be here. The other side makes me feel like I'm making a mistake, I'm so scared I'm going to a bad mum. I didn't have a great childhood, my mum gave up me and my sister to our dad. I was badly bullied at school and really struggled with depression from as young as 9 years old. I'm petrified that my kid is going to be miserable, that I won't make them happy or make them feel loved. Please tell me this is normal? I feel so lost, I love our child nothing could change that but I'm so scared of messing up