Omg omg omg I am kinda freaking out.

Rose • Spoken word/slam poet who is working to compete nationally. I love coffee, books, and babies. Obsessed with Breaking Bad
My husband and I have been married for four years and together for seven. I've wanted kids since I was five and asked god to send me one. When we decided at the end of February that I would go off the pill, I was overjoyed. I thought we would be pregnant right away. 
This year has been hard. Each month a reminder that I wasn't. It was so painful. 
We went on vacation and I was sure I would get pregnant then. When my period arrived I was devistated. 
I've been feeling for nearly a week like my period was gonna come. Boob tenderness is usually over by now. Today I cried over accidentally ordering an English muffin instead of a biscuit. My boobs still hurt. I had weird cramping. I am always tired but this was worse. 
Randomly I decided to test. 
I peed on the stick. Wrapped it up in tp to dry it off. Before I even got up off the toilet I took the tp off and it said pregnant. I freaked. It was so fast. I was expecting another let down. I was shaking so bad. I ran into the living room where my husband was eating. I made him look. I kept mumbling in shock. He smiled and hugged me. I was going to go to an art event tonight. Instead i found out I was pregnant. 
I'm so in shock. I'm still shaking. I tested again with a pink test. Since the first was blue. It tested positive right away too.