9Dpo and it’s looking like a BFN

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I’m trying to not use an hpt but the poas addiction is driving me insane. I did an opk at 9dpo and it’s blank😭 I know opks aren’t reliable for pregnancy but for both my pregnancies (one loss) opks were positive when I had the faintest squinter hpt.

Ahhh! Why is ttc so difficult.