Vaginas...I guesss??

Hey guys. I am 14 years old and have had my period for about 2 years and am pretty comfortable with it. The one thing I have never been comfortable with is... you guessed it, my vagina lol. I am a virgin and plan to stay one for quiteeee a while, but I have to admit I am horny. I mean, what teenager isn’t at some point yk, and I always am so scared that, “if I was to have sex right now, i would look gross and unmannered.” and I dont know how to shave it either. I have tried a few times, but normally leave it long. It’s so annoying. I have no idea what it’s supposed to look like, and I hate talking about stuff like this with my mom, and have never been to the lady part doctor. Please, give me any info!! Thank you !!!