My depression and anxiety has ruined so much for me

I’m 19 and I first got diagnosed with depressionwhen I was 12. Because of how young I was I feel like I missed out on so much that kids my age did. I didn’t go to a regular middle school or high school, didn’t go to parties, never had a boyfriend or my first kiss. And now it’s taking my job from me too. I started working at this place a year ago. And because of COVID regulations we have to get our temperature taken before we start our shift. For the last week my anxiety has been really bad causing my temperature to rise and my manager sending me home because I have a fever. I got tested for COVID and it came up negative. So it has to be my anxiety and now I’m not scheduled at all this next week. Everyone says my job is most likely going to fire me. I feel like I’m so fucking broken already and I’m such a fuck up. I don’t even see the point of me trying to be a functional adult if my anxiety and depression are just going to keep ruining things for me