Mixed messages 24/7

I kinda wanna break up with my boyfriend. He barely does anything. It’s not 50/50. I plan a date and I make sure the weather is good and offer a ride and make him cute creative cards and text daily versus him not even reading my texts for nearly a week, cancels 90% of the time, but on the off chance we can get together, he treats me really well and offers to pay.

I mean, he didn’t even wish me a happy birthday. I planned it for a month: just him, my friend, my sister, and me. I made sure that everyone was free, found a good drive in theater, we even modified my sister’s van so we could all lay in the back together. But day of, he just texted that he can’t come over and that he hopes the party doesn’t suck😕. It’s been almost 11 months since we started dating(I asked him out with a really cute card that took over a week to make and got an “oh ok” 😓). I don’t know if I want to keep trying or if I should say fuck it. I still really like him despite all this bullshit. I keep giving him chances and he does really well for a while then goes back to ghosting me off and on. Should I just say fuck it or should I wait to see if he cares enough to not cancel on our anniversary.

Because if he cancels our anniversary after I make every possible plan for us to still get together despite everything, I’m just going to be done. I’m dropping him and I’m going to cry and I’m going to spend my Christmas alone and single with some bomb ass homemade cookies, face masks, and a movie marathon because I don’t need a man, woman or anyone else.