I built up the courage to address the man whom I contracted herpes from after being overwhelmed with this burden weighing heavily on my heart. I just wanted to finally free my mind. And what I learned broke my heart all over again 💔. I felt this from the beginning but I really didn’t want to believe it.

He confirmed my fear. He was aware all along 😔 He knew this and kept it from me. How could he be so inconsiderate. I’m hurt and INFURIATED! I beat myself up constantly about this, feeling ashamed and blaming myself because of the decision I made that put me in this predicament. I would have been understanding if he had truly been unaware. Why was I robbed of a choice? My right to decide. I trusted him with my body and he betrayed me. He knowingly infected me. I am sick to my stomach! He even had the audacity to insinuate that I was lying before he finally came clean. I have gone through hell trying to accept having this even though it made me feel like it was the end of the world. Killed my spirit, snatched my self confidence & peace of mind away. I was nowhere near mentally prepared to accept it as a part of reality but every day I try. His insinuation was a total slap in the face. He couldn’t even begin to understand the toll this took on me. I deserved for him to acknowledge the pain he caused me and find just an ounce of human decency in his cold blooded heart and give me a sincere apology.. But to no avail, I got nothing. I’m not angry nor do I have any hate in my heart despite the blatant disregard for my well being. My feelings are truly hurt because I never would have imagined this person to be vile to the extent of them intentionally harming me. This definitely wasn’t the closure I needed & hoped for but I have no choice but to accept and move on from 😔 ..