Hi I just vent out my issue Im having at da moment as I have no one to talk to at all... Lately me and my bf been having sooo many fights that its making me fall out of love with him expectly da past week. We been fighting days and nights nonstop. I would compained to him that he needs to help me watch the kids but he refused to do it and would step out to talk to other people while leaving me to watch his 2 years old daughter and his 9 months old son. I have lost all my friends ever since I gave birth to his daughter as I have no one to watch her if i want to go out. And it got even worse when I gave birth to his son 9 months ago. I got less chance to go out to buy things cuz I have no one to help me watch my kids. I mean its so bad that I only get to go out once a month maybe if im lucky twice a month. I get it that hes tired from work but its like I do want some rest and away from da kids once in awhile and some me time but he won't do that.... Especially da past week now that he quit his job. He been spending more time talking to other people especially on wink. I asked him what it was and he told me that it was an app that he uses to talk to his cousins on. He would spend over 100s on that app just so you know. And da other day I decided to download da app to see what it was and to find out that it was to video chat random people that shows their private part. I told him about and I asked him why would you spend 100s on it for da past 2 months for him to answer with Im just curious. I get it your curious of da app if you spend only 5 buck on it but you have spend over 500 on it for over 2 months. Like really?!?!? To be honest I won't be surprised if you met up with them and fucked them by now. Cuz he kept saying that he only saw girls that is trans. So its like you spend over 500 on a app that give you trans.... Hmmmmm.... Now im getting of topic..... But any who..... Da main stress is i want him to watch his kids more often now that hes not working anymore instead of going out all da time. He expects me to cook for both him and da kids while watching them and feeding the youngest one while he goes on da computer to watch his show. And after that he expects me to bathe them and play with them. And when they taking their naps he wants me to clean da house while he disappear doing who knows what. He haven t done anything at all expect for cooking one meal and nve cooked again ever since. I mean I feel bad for his aunt as we staying at her place atm. But apparently hea been complaining hardcore to her about me being too lazy to clean when we were living with his mom. And now that we are staying at aunt place. She have notice that da past week. He haven t done anything to help me and can see why I get tired and fall asleep when they taking their nap. Its hard to care for 2 babies when one is always causing trouble and the other is always crying. I always have to chased after my 2 yo while carrying my 9 months as Im cooking for them while he just lays there and watch his show. Like the other day. I was cooking and he was just there laying down watching his show and our 2yo went and spill our son formula and those things are expensive 20 buck for a can. I told him to clean it up and what he do..... Stay in da bathroom for 20 mins. I had to clean up da mess. I complained to him just for him to leave da house and nve came back till like evening. And this was all in da morning so he was gone all day.... Is it really hard to ask for him to watch the kids for da day? Without him complaining to me that i do nothing to help. Its like I get it I dont work and I dnt make da money but its like I would like to have have alone time too. He always complained about him not spending enough time with them and now that hes jobless... He would rather spend all his money on useless thing then spending time on his kids... Heck we were supposed to move to a different state cuz of his 'new job' but apparently when I asked him about it he said he didn't apply for it yet. He had just got paid just last week and we were gna spend that paycheck for our drive there and now we are basically almost broke. 1400 buck gone in a week. He only brought food twice and that was for breakfast item only and one dinner and that was it. Me and my daughter had to eat eggs and hot for how many days cuz she cnt eat spicy sausage. I kept telling to stop buying those cuz she cnt eat it. He goes off and complain its not a sausage if its not spicy, thats what Italian people would say. Rme. Its just too much for me to handle... I know this is messed up of me to say this but i regret giving birth to his kids if i knew he was gna be like this. My depression has gone really bad ever since I gave birth to my son that I tried to kill myself when I was a week away from being induced to my son and he doesn't understand da stress I get. Thinking he gets it worse. Like he expects me to do everything cuz I asked for kids. Sure I asked for my daughter yes... But you knocked me up when I was not ready for another one yet and he dared say that I wanted another one like really. I did not say that I wanted another kid cuz Im not ready for another one especially when we were living with his mom. And he wonders why Im going crazy and always picking a fight with him... When he does t want to help me with his kids.... It takes two to make a kid and for him it takes one to watch two kids. Im sorry you had to read this pointless, all over da place vent of mine. I had no one else to speak to cuz if i told him about this... He would make it a big deal of it.... Saying I cnt stress at all when hes stressing out cuz of me and my pointless issue.