Insanity

I wish I can escape in a console

I wish I can find leisure time without feeling guilty for not giving that time to my daughter. These men have it easy. I’m tired. I’ll be the bad guy if I was to take multiple hours to myself. God forbid days. “Oh but you’re a mother”.

I’ve developed crazy social anxiety, I’ve “outgrown” literally all of my friends. Lord knows how much I love playing; spending time with my daughter, watching her reach all her milestones day by day. It’s amazing. But what sucks is that that’s the ONLY thing making me happy in life. I don’t know me anymore.

She’s 11 months.

I’m 22.

He’s 23.