Help!!

Hi whoever is reading this, I hope you’re doing well. I’m kinda coming on here just to vent but if anyone has advice or something you think would be beneficial to hear I would greatly appreciate it. Even if it’s harsh idc at this point.

Anyways...

I’m having issues in my personal life where I’m finding myself becoming extremely insecure, disassociated, and questioning everything and everyone regarding whether or not they actually like me or not (I’ve had this issue for awhile now but just now realizing it because I’m in a spiritual awakening) Especially when it comes to my boyfriend. I know he loves me because he shows me everyday that he does but I notice his attitude changing when we’re with other people especially other girls. He’s happy when we’re together but like I said when we’re around other people especially other girls he becomes a million times more interested in what they’re saying or if they ask for reassurance he hypes them up and all that jazz but when I need reassurance about us, he gets super flustered. And I get it I ask a lot but so do these girls and he has no problem telling them exactly what they wanna hear and idk it messes with my head and if I’m being crazy please someone tell me. It’s the only way I’ll feel better lmao. But I just don’t know what’s wrong with me and why I feel like I’m not good enough for him.

I apologize this short read isn’t properly written.😓