I dated this guy and i really thought he was the love of my life and i feel so stupid for still thinking about him he does not leave my mind whatsoever. We dated from October 2017-January 2019 and we had the best time of our lives we would do everything together from jet skiing going out of the country having sex in inappropriate places spending time with eachothers family. Anything and everything you can think of we did together he was my first love, the first person i lost my virginity to and i can’t get him out of my head. After we broke up i talked to a couple of guys but none of them compare to him and i know you aren’t supposed to compare your old and new relationships but it’s inevitable for me. He cheated on me multiple times so i broke up with him he actually told me never to stop talking to his family because we would get back together in the near future just not to have anybody else’s baby! And i just had a baby! Why is he still in my mind it’s about to be 2021 i crave him i want to be near him and everything. He was so bad for me so i hate that i still think of him. His family still contacts me and wants me to hang out with them still because they loved me too. I hate myself for this honestly. How many more weeks, months, years will this take? Because I’m still hanging on to hope that we will get back together😩 i feel so stupid for saying that ughhh. BTW I’m not with my baby’s father!!!!