Lonely 6w4d

I have always wanted kids. I have always wanted to get pregnant. Now that it’s happening I have been so depressed and anxious. I just lost my grandma, and she was my support system. No one else in my family is going to be happy or supportive. I’m turning 21 in 3 weeks, and this baby was definitely a surprise. I feel so guilty for not being beyond happy. I want this baby to feel nothing but loved and wanted. However I’m just struggling right now. I’m mourning the loss of my wary 20’s my 21st birthday... I’m mourning everything I had plans for and I feel like I’m losing my identity. I know my life won’t be over, when I have this baby, I just need to fall in love with my new life, and the transition has been hard. Any advice is welcomed. I’m doing my best. I don’t have a lot of people to talk to so I’m reaching out to other mamas. Who are in their early pregnancy.