I’ve been with my fiancé for almost 3 years, we’ve been a long distance couple the whole time. I’m from Canada and he is from Texas. I visit for a few months maybe twice or three times a year. He can’t visit me because he’s apart of DACA so he can’t leave America. I’ve been in Texas since June because I wanted to quarantine with him, and I truly wish I could stay longer, but my I-94 says I have to be back before Nov 29. I’m heading back home next week and I can’t help but feel really broken inside about it. You’d think by now I’d be used to it and it would be easier to go back. It’s really affecting my depression and I just keep dreading next week. I know this is the man I want to spend the rest of my life with, and it really hurts to be away from him. When I go back, after isolating for the two weeks due to covid, I’m gonna be looking for work so I work towards immigrating to America so I can be with him. I don’t know when I’ll see him again, he’s saving up so we can have our own house the next time I come back to America and I’ll be busy saving up to move to America someday that I won’t be able to spend on tickets to fly down and visit like I usually do. I’m going to miss him so much... it feels like my chest is caving in just thinking about how alone I’m going to be starting next week. I’m not gonna be able to wake up beside him for a long time... I know it’s necessary for our future to work hard so one day I can live with him but until then it’s going to be really isolating and depressing. I’m trying to stay strong and look at the bright side that maybe next time I’ll be able to permanently stay with him but I don’t know when that will be. I could use a few words of encouragement or even advice on the process of immigrating to America to help cheer me up and get me in the right mindset to focus on what I need to do instead of being miserable and feeling sorry for myself.

Please don’t be judgmental of the fact it’s a long distance relationship, I know some people don’t consider it a “real” relationship because of how far away we are and how little we actually get to spend together physically compared to other relationships, but it’s full of love and we’re very honest with each other and have amazing communication. We both can’t wait for the day we can live together. I have no doubts in my mind that this is the man I want to marry someday, and I trust him completely. I know he feels the same way.

I didn’t know which group to post in so I posted it here and in one other group.