K so basically want my husband to fuck me hard !!

I’m reaching a milestone in my marriage and we have one baby . With work and family it gets hard to focus on one another . We can only have sexy time once my little one is sleeping . But anywhoo , it’s nice ! I want to rock my husband tonight! Any tips on amazing blow jobs? I never really liked doing it but I’ll do it for him !! He is amazing to me in bed , wanna return the favor . He can sick my tits & pu**y allllll night long if I let him ! lol ordered a sexy outfit for anniversary ! Oh I’m so excited ! Also .... back door ??? We’re both wanting to try but j get grossed out . Any way to make it less embarrassing! ?