What does it mean to be a little? How do you know if you are one?

I’m 14 and have never been in a relationship. From the little a know about littles I think I might be one...? Can you know at this age? I don’t think I’d like the pacifiers and baby clothes and stuffed animals and at that, but being comforted and coddled and kinda treated like a baby... Can you have a romantic/sexual relationship if you are a little because I want that. What are the levels of littles? Do you have to have the baby stuff to be a little? Also is your boyfriend considered your daddy? Do you have to call them daddy and talk in a baby voice to be a little because I don’t think I’d want to do that. Also how can you find a relationship as a little, is it something you tell them at the beginning or wait? Also can childhood trauma cause you to become a little because my father emotionally and mentally abusive and I had a difficult childhood, but I haven’t had contact with him since I was 11. ANY information you can give me would be helpful to find out if I am one. And if I am what that means for me and my future relationships.(sorry if any of this sounds ignorant I’m really just don’t much about this stuff)