I cry with babies and I’m not even their mom

There was a baby in my daycare class that had a severe reaction to antibiotics, it gave him the most horrible rash I had ever seen while working in daycare. His moms were amazing moms and his rash had nothing to do with neglect. The rash appeared shortly after the antibiotics started, and that itself is pretty normal but it got horrible, like unbearable horrible really fast.

They did everything they could and I asked if instead of using wipes I could cut up soft pieces of baby wash cloths and soak them in baking soda water because some wipes irritate rashes and burn the skin and they said yes.

I made some homemade washable wipes at home that they ended up taking home to use themselves because the baking soda really dried up the rash. Hit bottom had BLISTERS and the baking soda dried them up without causing them to pop and expose raw skin.

But you know, I had to wipe him. The antibiotics also cause diarrhea and I had to clean his bottom very often because he would have wet farts constantly and I was trying to keep him clean at all times, I was trying to keep him as dry as possible and covered in diaper rash cream.

But y’all when I would wipe him, he would make this scream that sent shivers up my spine and I would say sorry to him and afterwards I would just hold him and rock him and I would cry with him. Within the week that rash was gone because they consulted his doctor and they took him off that particular antibiotic.

My twin nieces have covid-19, I have already had covid-19 (no I did not give it to them I stayed far away when I had it, locked away in my house but y’all we all live on the same property and it’s gone to half my family already. 13 people live here.) and I’ve talked to the health department and was told that I cannot catch or spread covid for 90 days after recovering so what I did is I went to to comfort my baby nieces. We are so very very fortunate that the babies are doing well. They have owlet socks to monitor their oxygen levels and they have stayed at 98%-100% and their mom has kept their temperatures down to a safe number the entire time. It is a huge blessing. But they still feel like crap, if you’ve ever had a sick baby you know what I mean you can just tell, and are fussy and one of them has a double ear infection so she’s on antibiotics and it gave her a yeast infection. She’s also TEETHING.

So although she’s okay enough to be home (thank god) girl is really having a rough time.

I went to help take care of them and she cried all night long pulling at her ears and I held her and sang to her and rubbed her head and I cried with her because I wanted to fix it and I couldn’t immediately fix it and I hate seeing them in pain. I hate seeing ANY BABY in pain.

I’m usually such an emotionally stunted person lol, I don’t know how to comfort my friends or adult family but hand me a baby and I just immediately naturally turn into this person who will sing to a baby and get them to sleep even if they feel like absolute doodoo. It makes me want to go back to daycare