Thanksgiving decision struggle

Is anyone else struggling to decide whether to do Thanksgiving or not? I feel like everyone around me knew without second thought if they were staying home or visiting family. Meanwhile I’m over here agonizing over what to do for the last several days.

One of my sisters so quickly and easily said she’s not coming to Thanksgiving. And the other said just as quickly and easily that she is. And I’m just like... how is this such an easy decision for you both??

I think what I truly want is to keep my family home, just the kids and us have a small little Thanksgiving, mostly because I don’t want my kids to get Covid and spread it at daycare, the idea of that guilt eats at me. But also my dumb brain keeps yelling at me, “what if Thanksgiving is your last opportunity to see your family alive?”

Please stick with me on that one, in April/May multiple members of my family came near death and none of it was related to Covid, and those things made me stop isolating back then. The spread in my area then wasn’t what it is now though. So that thought isn’t random. It just sucks to feel so unsure no matter which decision I make.