Hello everyone, I'm currently 9 weeks 2 days and this is the furthest I have gotten in a pregnancy. I have has 4 losses in the first trimester previously and have seen 4 different doctors trying to find answers but none of them have seemed to care since the pregnancies end so quickly. My last pregnancy was terrible because it happened in June, and the doctor practically told me I should be thankful I lost the pregnancy because who could ever want to have a baby during covid. I dropped him like a hot potato. I wasnt trying to get pregnant but was <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android">tracking ovulation</a> so I could give the dates to a new doctor. But as if by magic I got pregnant. Luckily i had an appointment pre scheduled with a new OBGYN and though the office wanted to reschedule me, I wouldnt allow it. I went in, talked to the doctor and she said we could try progesterone, which ive been on since. She also made a compelling case that my partner and my genetics are probably garbage and to expect to miscarry again. She scheduled a scan for 7 weeks 4 days, and for the first time I was able to get an U.S. and saw a baby with a heartbeat of 163 and I measured at 8 weeks 4 days.

I'm still a mess though, everything is scary. My regular obgyn referred me to a high risk OB because I am a carrier for a clotting disorder that she is concerned about, she didnt give me any more information than that. I live 2.5 hours away from her office and 3.5 hours away from my high risk specialist. I'm a bit concerned because even though I've lost multiple pregnancies, theres absolutely no sense of urgency from either of these doctors. I've made my first "official" pregnancy appointment with my OB and an over the phone consultation with the specialist but I'll be past 12 weeks for both, and right now I'm scared this could end at any minute. When I express these concerns I'm just told to go to the e.r. if I am very concerned, but an e.r. visit with a scan runs up to about $1500. I'm a bit more on edge because my at home tests are very light, my doctor said not to be concerned because at home tests arent reliable, but I seriously have nothing other than morning sickness to count that things are ok. What are your experiences with scans and hcg tests in early pregnancy? I would rather find out there is no heartbeat than to just start bleeding. 😔 I dont know if this was more of a venting post or a looking for answers post... I'm just so scared.. it's been 5 years of trying, so little answers and so little help.