I feel hopeless

I got my iud out in may and I also found out I have PCOS. I feel horrible bc I have two wonderful babies that are healthy and great, but we wanted to try for our third, I know 7 almost 8 months isn’t long to be trying but god does it hurt. My husband decided that he doesn’t want to try anymore, but to have been trying, to finding out I can’t, to my husband not wanting to it’s sooo emotionally hard to deal with, we haven’t been actively trying ig but we don’t use protection so at the same time we’re not, not trying. But it’s so much harder now bc my cousin, sister in law, and two bestfriends all found out they’re pregnant since this has all happened, and its so hard. I can’t talk to my husband about this bc he doesn’t understand especially since we stopping trying for it, and I just feel so unhappy and ungrateful bc I already have two but heck man I don’t know. If you read this far thank you for letting me vent even though it was kind of crazy.