I can’t be the only one? Trying to conceive is so stressful I talk to my husband and cry some nights and he reminds me that trying shouldn’t be something that makes me sad that it’s to be enjoyed and when our time comes well know it came from moments of love and happiness not stress and obsessiveness. Nevertheless, I am guilty of working myself up month after month. At first I thought I have grown more in tune with my body but now I see I am just growing more obsessed. Every month I tell myself I’m feeling symptoms of pregnancy when I’m closer to my time of the month. I take countless test and make myself think I see a line I literally stare at the test from all angles and put my phones flashlight to see a line but it never progresses days going forward. At this point I am back to that and it’s frustrating and defeating when I test. I know I am still young and if gods will is to give me a child it will happen. But, in my earlier twenties I had 2 pregnancy’s and each time I found out around 5 weeks because I missed my period and had symptoms it seemed much easier to conceive without me even trying without me even testing early obsessively(They ended in miscarriages). But why not now? Why now that I am ready and trying is it so difficult?

My period should come in 5-6 days so I am still not out but I wanted to get this off my chest. I wanted to see if anyone relates? And if you do I wish you the best of luck and that your time comes soon! Baby dust to all and i hope this is our month.

I’m going to take a step back on testing until the day of my missed period(if missed) i will still take ovulation test after if needed but I will try to be different to not obsess to not over test and waste countless money on test. And most importantly to not stress and be sad or cry. I will enjoy the process and when it’s my turn I will love my rainbow baby to the fullest. Good luck you guys and if you feel like I do you are not alone! 💕✨