I said I was done but now Im having second thoughts....

So I am mum to two beautiful boys. My eldest is 4 and my youngest turned one in September. I was certain during my second pregnancy that this would be my last, i saw myself as a mother of two and that was perfect for me. My eldest would have a sibling and I felt confident that I could parent and financially support two children comfortably.

After my second son was born, I felt complete, like my family was complete. This was it, I was done. No more babies for me. I even encouraged my husband to have a vasectomy as I was that sure that I didn’t want any more children and our family was complete (he didn’t have one)

BUT, recently I have found myself pondering the idea of a third child and really coming around to the idea of another. I feel like my heart is all for it but my head is screaming at me ‘Can we afford it?’ ‘Will our other two lose out on our attention and time if we add another to the mix?!’

Has anyone else felt like this? Been completely certain that you’re last baby was definitely your last but then started second guessing yourself later down the line?

Wondering whether if I listen to my head, I will regret it later on in life OR if I listen to my heart that I will regret possibly being not as financially able to support all three children as much as I may like later in life eg college/university tuition, house deposits, first cards etc

Feeling so conflicted!!!