Gaining back control of myselfđź’—

Val

After 4 losses I’m finally ready to take back my mental health. I’m still healing from my last loss but I’m tired of not feeling happy with myself and not getting shit done(ESPECIALLY this one‼️).

It’s been a rough 2 years. I have let myself go, I’ve gained more than 20 lbs(I have a small figure so it’s really noticeable on me). I was the type of person to always get ready,look cute and feel cute. I don’t know if it’s the levothyronxine that I started taking is making me feel this good, deleting my social media accounts temporarily, or I’m just finally motivated to be better.🤷🏽‍♀️

I was always so self -conscious about going to the gym by myself or anywhere in public and I’m finally getting over it. I’ve decided to start to eat healthier, I’ve started going to the gym and I’m going to continue to do so for no less than 4 days a week. I’m also making sure I do at-home workouts to be able to stay active 6 days a week.

I’m still in the process of finding the cause to my miscarriages with my obgyn but I’m thinking of seeing a fertility specialist. As of now I don’t plan on trying to conceive again until I lose at least 15lbs and feel mentally ready to do so. I pray and hope one day to be able to carry to term and be the mother I’ve always dreamed of being.🤱🏽 Fingers crossed and we’ll be ready in March🤞🏽