I don’t know what I want from this post. Maybe just a little rant or maybe closure idk but I just need to let it out.

So I was with someone 2 and a half years. I put up with a lot anyway with him being an alcoholic and drug addict and schizophrenic. He would turn violent so I was scared to leave him. Anyway I fell pregnant so I left him for our babies sake. A year goes by my babies 5 months old. She’s beautiful. So I make contact you know maybe his changed so we met and he had an amazing weekend with his daughter. I said I’d make a go of things again. Then I found the sexts. So I dig deeper. Done my stalking and found out he slept with 16 girls. NOT one but 16!? My daughter she’s unwell. She has chromosome abnormalities. If she has what the doctors think she has she might not even live in her 30’s. My hearts breaking but more for my daughter. He knew this. He blames me. It’s not my fault. So when she’s in hospital and I’m trying to get hold of him and she’s on feeding tubes. His sleeping with someone. More than one. So I’m now 3 months late potentially pregnant (negative tests) OR I might’ve caught something and that’s why I’m late. Waiting on bloods. Idk what I want from this but my hearts breaking 😓