getting back in the dating scene LONG BUT PLS HELP

i moved to utah in august and i’ve worked on my mental health so much since then and i feel ready to have a relationship. i’m also 19 and my last relationship was when i was 17. i don’t like being single i never have but i chose to be for the past two years because i felt like if i wanted to be in another relationship i needed to work on myself.

i went on a bumble date on halloween. it was a fun date and i was so excited to get to know him more after. i was really infatuated with him but:

1. he took me out with his friends on the first date and they all primarily speak spanish (a language i only know the basics of) and he was talking to them in spanish most of the time.

2. we talked for a week after the date consistently and when it started snowing he texted me “wish we could be cuddling” but after that he deleted the app we talked on primarily, gave me his number but barely ever texted me.

3. he slid up on my instagram stories consistently and only the ones i looked really good in.

4. i asked him out and told him i wanted to see him before i went to another state for christmas break, he said yes and asked me why i was going to that state. i told him in the hopes of keeping the conversation going but he never even opened my message?

5. the last time he slid up on my story, he unfollowed me 10 minutes later. i removed him from the rest of my social media apps because i felt like i did what i could but he obviously wasn’t interested.

but for some reason i couldn’t stop thinking about him. And i know it might be because he never really knew me and i felt like if he did it would’ve been different. on the date i got to see him in his element, his comfort zone, around his friends.

i was already nervous to meet him and meeting his friends on top of that was just nerve-wracking. so i couldn’t show him my personality and judging from the way he talked w his friends, the things he told me he likes to do, i felt so compatible with him because we have the same interests, we have similar manners and the way he talked to his friends even though i barely understood (the laughing all the time, bringing up funny memories, all of that) felt like how me and my friends were like when i was back home.

i redownloaded bumble after we stopped talking, and the first person i saw was him which i felt like was a sign or something (it was probably just the algorithm though) so i swiped right, just to see what would happen, and he swiped right too?

i made a joke saying “do i know you from somewhere” and he laughed we talked for maybe 2 seconds after that (the conversation became dull after he said he was just chilling and he didn’t have any plans for the weekend)

i wanted to tell him let’s do something then but i already felt hurt from asking him out once and how he said yes but barely spoke to me after.

i followed his instagram again (i already regret it) and i know the following thing sounds so dumb but it’s my way of giving him the opportunity to talk to me again if he wanted to.

i don’t know what to do, i haven’t dated in so long i feel like i’ve lost my touch. i know this is long but please help!! i went on so many bumble dates since i came here but he’s the only guy i felt really connected with!