Husband Mad With My Health Issue

So, several years ago I got into a car crash that gave me a horrible concussion. I couldn’t speak for three days and the hospital, in retrospect, should have done scans to make sure my brain wasn’t too damaged.

Anyways, I’ve been diagnosed with adult apraxia of speech and am currently waiting for covid to die down so I can go to speech therapy.

It’s awful waiting because my husband disregards what the doc says and is CONVINCED I’m making it all up because I don’t want to communicate clearly with him and says it’s my way of telling him to go f*ck himself. I’m so frustrated that I can’t verbalize my thoughts like I want to and that he is taking personal offense at my disability. It hurts and I wish he’d go to marriage counseling with me but he won’t, he says all the problems in our marriage are my fault. I’m so tired. Thanks for letting me rant.