So I had my baby at 19 I turned 20 already and as much as I love my son it was such a mistake having him.. because of him I literally cannot do anything I can’t even sleep. I can’t do anything without worrying about who’s gonna watch him, and if I do bring him I have to worry about how he’s gonna behave since he’s really bad. Every time I take him somewhere he acts so bad and I feel like everyone is judging me because I can’t control my baby. I’m not with his dad and I can’t even get in a new relationship because I don’t even have time for it since I have my son. Yet his dad is already in a new relationship and can live life as if he doesn’t have a child. Don’t get me wrong I love my son and we do have some good times but for the most part I honestly regret having him like I don’t think I’m cut out to be a mom. I see women posting “becoming a mom was the best thing i ever did” and I just don’t feel the same like if I could go back in time I literally would not have any kids. I never understood when my mom told me that she wished she would’ve never had kids when I was growing up and now I totally get it. I just feel like a horrible person for feeling this way . Everyone makes motherhood seem like it’s just so fun and it’s the best thing ever but to me it fucking sucks... now that I have a child it baffles me that people actually WANT this... like I planned the pregnancy with my son and it’s just not going how I expected it to at all. I would never put him up for adoption because i would never forgive myself and feel like a horrible person but does anyone else feel this way?? Like I definitely don’t want any more kids but sometimes I feel for my son. I get angry with him and I yell. He doesn’t deserve it at all but I just get so frustrated 😢