My partner cheated well ex

So I got cheated on bout 3 days ago. The situation was so horrible. I’ve been really struggling with anxiety n not eating n thinking about it n them together. I actually got asked to pick him up from a house which turned out to be hers. N then got told by him that i deserved it because I’m damaged. All our friends have sided with him because we had Been fighting but not even an hout before I went to get him. He was telling me he loved me n wanted to make it work and all that. Don’t worry we made it a metre down the st before I told him to get out after he laughed at me while I cried. I have to see him today at a game we play an I’m just scared that he’s going to say it was for the best we aren’t together. Because i wanted to be Together so bad. I really love him n I know going back isn’t n option but it’s hard not too deal with the break up feeling n also have t deal

With the cheating. Feels like two different things. He also has told our friends he wants to just move on. I feel like he owes me an apology. I don’t get to just move on. I have to get through this crap. N it’s so hard. Will he ever feel bad? N how long till I don’t anymore. I’m heart broken n sometimes all I want is him which feels so stupid. I just need some advice.