So I’ve struggled with my confidence and how I view myself for YEARS. But that’s recently changed.

I always hate when I have break outs and have to go outside or see someone/people because my confidence would go down even more and I would honestly think I look more ugly with acne, even though I really had no control over it.

Yesterday I went out and noticed I had multiple break outs due to my period coming up and just had the thought of “Ehh, whatever. I don’t care.” Not even thinking about the fact that I’d be wearing a mask that would cover it all up. I’ve never truly had the “I don’t care” mindset like I did with that before.

And today, even though I didn’t feel that great due to my period cramps, I really wanted to do my makeup even though I’m not even that good, at it, but felt more confidence when I looked at my face and my(somewhat) pretty makeup.

Even though I’m not very good at makeup and had my hair up in a bun(I think I look better with it down and feel more pretty that way because I don’t like how my forehead looks), I still thought I looked really good and even had the thought of “I look kind of hot!” I don’t think I’ve ever thought of myself as hot before! The thought really surprised me and I almost doubted my own thoughts!

I’m even having more of a confidence in different aspects of my personality that I didn’t have before and I’m really loving the change!

I find it so crazy that I’ve been so self conscious and had such low self esteem and confidence for so, so long, but now it’s all changing! I’m truly happy that it’s all changing because I’ve been stuck out of love with myself for too long!