I have never posted on here before, but have read so many posts from you all and felt a sense of community with people who have been through a loss/losses. My quick background—I have been pregnant 7 times and have one living daughter who is 18 months. All other pregnancies have ended in miscarriages, 3 needing D&C’s.

I just found out yesterday that I am pregnant again (we desperately want another child and pray this little one grows), but I have had so many miscarriages I feel like I expect a bad ending over a successful pregnancy. My Hcg numbers are where they should be for 5 weeks, but my doctor has decided this time she does not want to repeat blood work or do an ultrasound until 8 weeks. I have had missed miscarriages at week 6 and 7 in the past, so I find my anxiety high, especially bc my back hurts and I have light cramping off and on...but can those also be seen in a successful pregnancy? I’ve had so many losses versus successes that I can’t remember if the light cramping and back pain isn’t always a bad sign. Any tips or tricks to help stay positive are much appreciated. It’s going to be a long 3 weeks.

We want this little one so desperately, but I also have a hard time believing this could be the real thing...but I want to be happy and hopeful! All the emotions are crazy rn.