TRIGGER WARNING

Well, this year had been the hardest year of my life like it has for so many.

For myself,

We have moved 8 times since March,

I’ve learned of childhood traumas while dealing with severe postpartum depression and anxiety,

I’ve had a complete mental breakdown that included involuntary self harm (throwing myself against walls, hitting my head on walls),

I held a gun to my heart in August and came very close to pulling it in the middle of the night while trying to recover from addiction through my depression as I had been smoking weed and drinking to try and ignore the pain I felt through therapy and knowing of my psychological and emotional abuse in childhood.

Through all of this,

I am still in therapy weekly to maintain my mental health,

I exercise daily for at least 30 minutes and break a sweat each time,

My nutrition is a HUGE focus,

I journal,

I pray,

And I acknowledge my triggers and work through them while recognizing where my vulnerability may be within a situation and how to cope through it in a healthy way.

So, I shaved my head. It’s symbolic of releasing all the toxicity of my year and the final closing of the person I used to be so I can move forward with the woman I am more. ❤️

I am choosing to not be anonymous with this post because I am proud of where I am now and unashamed of the struggle I have endured. If you are struggling, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. Get the help you NEED even if you don’t want to and be the person you are meant to be unapologetically ❤️