IDK WTF I’m doing 😩

soooooooo ..... first of all, I already know all the points of where I messed up at. But I’ve been back and forth working things out with my ex and we got in the worst fight we had ever gotten in when he really damn near tried to fight me. In the midst of all that, I had a ex in town that’s been trying to turn a new leaf and settle down foreal, going out his way, driving 2 hours just to spend time with me but deep down,not even that deep, I KNOW I would be settling for him. Plus he’s literally been diagnosed as psychotic from being in the marines and I know the type of shut he’s done......but my period is LATE and during our initial relationship we were actually trying for a baby and I honestly think it happened this time. Idk what to do because even though times are tough right now, I want to be with my first pick, it’s been 5 years and he’s my best friend 😔 I’m only 3 days late but it’s something about this time that’s making feel like my period is never coming on. Idk what to do or think