My s/o is so fucking disrespectful. I told him that I’m not going to spend anymore holidays or birthdays with him because how could you not, EVERY single birthday and holiday I spent with him we always argue or he violates me. It always turns out to be real life SHITTY. So when I told him that, he’s like well my kids gonna spend it with me I’m like no they’re not and he said if he doesn’t spend the holidays with his kids he’s going to kill my mom, make her suck his dick and that my father, niece and nephews can suck his dick!

The reason why I even told him that is because he kept pressing me to give him $40 so he can get weed. when I didn’t have $40 anyway so he was saying he’ll give it back tomorrow I told him I don’t have it, so he kept pressing me pressing me telling me to give him the money until I gave him something. Then he proceeds to tell me if I want to leave the house ( cause I was saying I’m going to leave so I won’t have to deal with his shit ) that he’s gonna check my pockets.

I only had like $22, I’m a stay at home mom with two kids and I get food stamps, that’s what keeps us alive. He won’t let me work, doesn’t want me to go to school cause he thinks I only want to go to make friends. He is on unemployment at the moment so he gets paid tomorrow that’s why he wanted me to give him the money.

The reason why I didn’t want to give it to him is because yesterday and the day before, he was being verbally abusive, talking all kinds of shit cause he couldn’t find something of his so he starts blaming me and our son. Calling me all kinds of names, going thru my phone deleting my friends and blocking them from my Facebook and contacts, I’m so fucking sick of it!! When I get dressed to leave and trying to get my kids dressed he says I’m not leaving with his kids, they’re not going to be staying with you at your bum ass parents house.

I have a ACS case with him and it’s his fault they’re involved, he got physical he was putting hands on me, at the time I was like 5 months pregnant, and he ran off drunk with our son so I called the cops, ACS got involved. My dumb ass told ACS it was a lie just to save him from not getting locked up.

We have a modified order of protection and we were still around each other the fact so that he can be with his kids.

At this point I’m ready to tell ACS the truth, I’ve called the dv hotline and they gave me resources. I’ll call them when I’m not around this son of a bitch. Right now I’m basically held hostage and I’m not going to be fighting him in front of my kids idc if they’re babies or won’t understand what’s going on but all this shit I deal with is putting a toll on my mental health idk what else to do.

He’s the type to come look for me and blow up my phone if I leave! I’m scared for my parents life too since he broke their windows before and constantly threatens me, talks a whole bunch of shit about them when they’re good people that does more than his side of his family does for my kids ! I’m ready to disappear I don’t deserve this shit I’m a good ass person but to him it’s otherwise. I’m surprised I haven’t killed myself yet