Feeling so down. Irregular periods and Aunt Flow showed today

Feeling so depressed right now. We are trying for baby #2. I finally got my first post partum period back at 12 1/2 months. I stopped breastfeeding around 10 months. My cycle was 37 days long after. Then my luteal phase was short. My period started 11 dpo. I was using ovulation test strips every single day since my first period pp. I estimated to ovulate on Dec 5 with my period due Dec 18 but it started today. Gosh I don’t know what to think. We struggled getting pregnant last time with our first baby. We had to go on ovulation stimulation medication. Ugh I was hoping to not do that. But it’s so hard ttc when your cycles are so screwed. It takes the joy out of trying and leaves behind a ton of anxiety and sorrow. Anyone else been through this? Sorry just needed to vent.