I’ve been trying on and off for a while and haven’t yet succeeded, well today I found out my brother and sister in law is on their second child.. their baby is 1, I’m happy for them I truly am but I’m so saddd, I just keep avoiding talking to them , I just keep praying this bitterness or whatever it is goes away ... I just wanna be a mommy 🥺 I haven’t told anyone about my struggles as I’m not comfortable to discuss them yet... I’m not mad at them I’m happy but I’m sad for myself .