Where are my emotions?

I’ve been depressed from early teens/pre teens and I’ve been almost numb to everything the last two and a half years.

I’m started to get better because I don’t feel numb anymore really. But I don’t know what my own emotions or feelings are. I was numb for so long I think I’ve pretty much forgotten what it’s

like to feel and be able to sort out your emotions.

At times I really don’t know what to feel like sadness, anger, happiness, none of that. I feel happiness, but when a situation comes up that I think I should be happy, I don’t feel that way.

Maybe I am still numb and just don’t really feel like it like I did. Or maybe it isn’t as bad as it was.

I just wish I could figure out how to I guess manage my emotions or be able to even identify them?

I feel if I could truly felt things again and knew my own emotions and what I was feeling, I would figure out what is the best thing for me to do in order to help myself....