So I know this seems super childish. And I hate that our arguments turn out like this... we barely argue but when we do , YEAH. I’ll let the messages speak for themselves.. I’m not looking for judgement on the toxicity of our fights im looking for some real advice and opinions ... I trust him to the fullest extent now but I feel like we have had trust issues in the past especially in regards to his baby mama (Rachel) and I always felt like something might’ve happened .. she’s made me feel that way and certain things he’s done made me feel that way... I had never been with anyone with a kid before him so maybe that’s why I’m not sure... but it explains more in the messages. This all started because he saw something on my Twitter from years ago about me telling someone I was coming back to my home town for Christmas... I have NEVER cheated on this man, God’s honest truth. But I often ask him if he’s still feeling our marriage or is attracted to me when he seems distant and I guess me asking him that made him feel like I was hiding something so he went on the only social media he has and snooped around. I felt like his reaction was ridiculous... and he should’ve asked me instead he said “have fun with your hometown homeboys” and wouldn’t tell me what he apparently saw until a day later when this argument lingered on. Once we finished that conversation his baby mama got brought up cause it always seems like his past gets brought up and how he went through so much. To me it seems like it still bothers him 5 years a marriage and two kids later .... I feel like something had happened but he swears nothing did. She has told me that shit happened basically the first two years we were together ...no proof. He denies it. But she had some serious detail and seemed so convincing. I know I should obviously take my mans word if I say I trust him now and actually do. He has just changed and grown up a lot I feel like his type of personality he wouldn’t admit to the wrongs cause he has too much to lose... but At the same time I feel like he’s grown to the point where he could admit to his mistakes if he has guilt.... do you think he’s telling the truth or do you think he cheated on me .....? This has bothered me for years every time I ask him it turns into a huge fight cause he said he’s sick of me not trusting him ... please just read the messages and tell me what you think .. i want to work this out with him separating is not an option for me... I’m too in love and willing to fix this I just need the truth