Communication problem 🤦🏽‍♀️please help .

Hi guys... I have a problem communicating with my partner . Communication in general as well as feelings , what’s going on in life lol.

I don’t really know how to communicate much ....

I’ve always been a very shy non talkative person never liked to talk about my problems or anything going on and that’s my problem now! I’m trying to communicate more and stuff I know my partner is tired of me saying it and not showing it but I’m serious this time I wanna be able change it before it’s too late . Do you have any advice On trying that’ll help .

Honestly idek , just never been a talkative person always been shy quiet my whole life .. My mind always go blank whenever we are having a conversation but I don't know why ..As soon as plan on talking to him whenever we’re in person or kn the phone everything in me goes blank freezes up, like I'm afraid of because he does a lot of things to try and help . Then I find my self thinking it through later and texting him after Then he gets more mad/frustrated that I didn’t say that during the conversation. Likes it’s easy for me to text a lot that I wanna communicate with him about but can’t seem to get it together face to face or anything 🤦🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️😒 . We live together we both work fulltime. Sorry i sound really dumb and all 😴