I'm a week post partum. im 19.

i absolutely hate the idea of me as a "mom"

i don't like the idea of being called mom, mommy, mother, etc.

i don't know why. i see all these people like "I'm so happy to be a mom" i just.. don't understand at all??

i was thinking maybe it's because i never ever had a good relationship with my parents?

the thought of my childhood makes me cringe.

the thought of my relationship with my parents makes me cringe.

i just.. the thought of me being MOM makes me cringe.

it's not even me having a baby, just being "mom".

ugh. how do i get over this shit.