Christmas blues...

Anyone else just not feeling Christmas this year? 2020 has been a rough year in general but I was really hoping this Christmas would be different. I really thought this would have been our month and that I would be able to surprise my husband by telling him he would be a daddy. Sadly my AF showed up two days before Christmas and my emotions have been all over the place. Of course while visiting family someone else announced they were expecting again (it never fails that I am always on my period when I find out someone else is pregnant). I'm not say I'm not excited for them but it's hard for me when someone announces their having another baby when I don't even get to have one. I still have hope that one day it will be us getting to make that special announcement, but I feel my faith getting thinner as my prayers for a little one continue to be unanswered. 💔