being good enough

lately I have had no self confidence! i cry all the time because i don’t look like instagram models or anyother gorgeous girl. i hate how i look, i feel fat, and i hate to eat and when i eat i feel bloated and want to puke. i want to starve myself so i can be skinny and look beautiful my friends will all invalidate how i feel about myself because “i’m littler”than them and when i say that i make them feel worse about them selves. my family will always tell me how they wish they had my body and i hate when they do because it makes me think its ok to not eat and keep up those bad habits and i just need some help.