Gonna be completely honest.

When I found out I was pregnant with this baby I was upset. Like my oldest kid was only 6-7 months and I wanted to wait at least one year before trying for another.

I had a hard time really enjoying I was pregnant again and when I finally got excited for him I was terrified of what if I lost him? I felt almost like karma would get me because I didn’t want him in the first place.

When he was finally born it was the biggest relief and my god he fit into our family perfectly. I cannot imagine going through this past year without him here.

And my husband and I were talking about it yesterday how perfectly God works. Because with covid we probably never would’ve started trying for a long time and then it would’ve led to a much bigger age gap than what we would’ve wanted. Or we would’ve ended up having a baby at the beginning of covid when spouses weren’t allowed in delivery rooms.

I am so happy this little guy is in our lives. And I cannot believe he’s already 1! Happy birthday Jedidiah ❤️