I broke up with my bf and who also was going to be my fiancé about 3 months ago

We stayed together almost a year and it was a long distance relationship

I will be honest this time is really hard

I’ve been in previous relationships but this one hurt the most

Because I was rejected by him and he actually made me break up with him because that’s what he wanted but didn’t have the courage to do so he doesn’t feel guilty about it

Our last call was through FaceTime and he didn’t even want to look at my face because he was already done with our relationship

This relationship was leading into marriage

I did a really big mistake by depending my whole life on him even my career

He had good qualities in him really I don’t wanna say he was all bad

But we didn’t fit each other’s personalities

But why does it still hurt I know he moved on long time ago before we broke up

But why am I still not?

I have been getting myself busy with anything

Really

But it’s still hard

I have deleted everything related to him because it hurts me seeing his pictures or even any social media account

He really hurt me