Overwhelmed

I am pregnant with my second and he's due on July 9th (my 1st boys' bday), but I'm struggling a lot. I've been on anti depressants off and on the last couple years and so ppd has been a struggle. but I find myself dreading my baby not being my baby anymore, and completely consumed by how I am going to handle two boys that are almost exactly 2 years apart esp when my older one is a total mamas boy. I guess I'm just needing words of encouragement. I have to hand it to you ladies that have kiddos so close together. Idk how you do it. 💪👏💯

Picture from my ultrasound yesterday