I’m so defeated.. three years of trying and I haven’t had ONE positive pregnancy test. I’ve been on multiple fertility drugs and it makes no sense to me! I have one blocked tube.. just one! Which means I still have one functioning tube and in these three years I haven’t had one sign of hope. Why?? 😭😭😭 We’re doing everything we’re supposed to be doing, and then some. I just need a positive. I need some hope. I need it so bad! Why do I feel God has cursed me? Why am I not good enough to be a mother?? What am I doing wrong? What else do I need to do?? I hate when people say to not worry about it because it’ll happen when it’s meant to or that as soon as we stop trying it’ll happen. Like, NO! It doesn’t freaking work that way for everyone! We’ve done that. Stopped tracking, stopped testing, let it just be and I’m still stuck here, with no hope. Currently I’m 4 days from AF and I tried Letrozole with this past cycle. Not even the faintest line and I just know I’m not going to be getting that BFP, which gives me zero hope for the next cycles. I can’t do it anymore. I’m to the point where I want them to take my reproductive organs out, they’re useless!! My body is useless and I hate myself. I’m just over, I’m done, I’m fed up!