Okay so yesterday my guy friend came over and we hung out and we ended up having sex. The thing is I remember saying no repeatedly and I was under the influence too (limp but aware). Basically I gave him a blowjob cause he wanted one and I was willing to do it and I wanted to. Then he wanted more but I said no. Eventually he was on top and said “I can’t control myself” and yea the rest you can figure out. The thing is I really really enjoyed it I kept saying no but I didn’t want him to stop. Eventually I made him stop because he’s one of the rougher ones and we were unprotected and I’m not on anything. I don’t know I’m confused on this whole thing cause I really enjoyed it and if we were protected I would’ve gone longer. I don’t want to say it was rape because well I gave in, I wanted it and I allowed it. When we stopped he hugged me and we just hugged for a while and he was comforting me. After that he lead us to the bed and I was on top ... we didn’t do anything just cuddle and kiss (it was me who did all the kissing) but after that we chilled. I asked him if we were still going to talk or hang out after this cause I thought he was just using me (we’ve been friends for 4 years I wanted to know if our friendship ended) he said that of course we still are etc. After all that we hung out for another hour talking and laughing ... I’m just confused on what happened. I’m not worried about our friendship that’s my least concern and about the unprotected sex he never came and my period is coming up

I’m just confused on what actually happened?

My brain is just ????

I really enjoyed every moment with him and he enjoyed it too but I’m just confused

If you’re reading this please don’t hate on him we’ve been there for each other for the longest and he’s a good guy, this whole thing is confusing.

Do you have flashbacks from sex