No HSG this month, no Letrozole. RE’s office closed because all doctor’s were deployed to work with Covid patients. They don’t know when they’ll open again. I’m feeling awful and selfish for being upset. I keep trying to tell myself, we’ve been TTC for 15months what’s a couple more. I just keep thinking how hopeful I felt all damn year and now on the very last day of the year when I thought I’d be holding a newborn or at the very least a growing belly, I’m feeling defeated. I feel like someone has thrown a tree trunk in the road and there’s nothing I can do but turn around and head home cuz I will never be pregnant.