I am rolling into my third trimester and I know some of it has to do with hormones and the holidays being so wanky. I posted earlier about having a self absorbed and narcissistic parent. Currently watching her house because she insisted on having to travel during the holidays during a pandemic using the excuse that I am about to have another baby and she needs to get away now before the baby arrives. Mind you the flight and trip was planned before I announced I was pregnant. I’ve been in this house for over a week watching the dog and the house. Needless to say the house almost caught on fire (breaker box was letting out fumes and their were power surges). Heat broke some lights are still broken. She made every excuse not to come home despite her husband wanting to come home. She’s been away now for almost two weeks, her husband only a little over a week. Their bed broke so now the spoiled dog that she has made into an over eater and in invalid because she just carries her around all day won’t sleep because the bed she’s use to sleeping in is broken. I’ve been awake since 3:30 had gone to bed at 2. I want cry I want to yell I want to be back in my house. This is the final time I watch this house. She’s made me cry about the fact that I’m as trying to pressure her into coming home earlier. Idk how I’ve lasted so long not cutting her off. I don’t think I can but I am setting stricter boundaries because I can’t do this anymore. Why is everything about her even when I’m pregnant. She did this to me with my first. It became about her leaving her partner at the time and getting remarried only a couple of weeks after me giving birth. Meanwhile my husband and I were still living with her ex as she moved in with her new husband. She gave me such a hard time that holiday season too made me upset a week after giving birth for something so stupid. I hate her. I think hate her. That’s terrible to say and it makes me feel so sad. My dad isn’t around she’s basically the only family I have around.